November 20, 2007
~ Randomly...
I have yet to read a horoscope that says "Life is hard for you, Virgo. The stars are in the right position for you to give it all up and end it tonight. Wait no more."
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Many years ago, someone broke up with me but carried an immense amount of guilt towards me. So much so that he couldn't face me, couldn't keep in touch with me, could only keep rejecting me even when it was clear I didn't care for a relationship with him anymore.
I just kept biting on and didn't let go. Of the friendship I had and wanted to keep with this person. I told him I could let him go as a boyfriend but there was no way I could let him go as a friend. He couldn't ditch me as a friend. Too bad for him.
About a year after we broke up, he finally resurfaced to my horizon.
Now, I still say that he's a crap boyfriend to his current girlfriend. He's an idiot. But that's ok with me 'cos he's also my friend (serves me right for not letting go...). On the other hand, he thinks I'm a pain in the (his) ass. But scolds me everytime I try to be ceremonial with him.
Feel like talking to this idiot tonight... haha...
I'm still glad I did not let him ditch my friendship many years ago.
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Sometimes, I wonder what's the big fucking deal? Let's just say 'sorry' and hang out together again.
Life's too damn short anyway.
Been hearing that many, many times the past week. "Life's too short."
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Suddenly, after dinner tonight, felt very tired. In every sense. Spent.
Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 23:21